I really have to study for my math test. But I'm so fucking selfish, and I'd rather have fun then study. But I really have to get this done. :( Hellllllp sombody. Anybody.

Everything is going...the way is should be. I mean, things are starting to come together, all around me. It's so weird. I feel like I'm leading a different life now. But it feels good.

I don't understand how love can just go away for some people. Like... one day you're out together holding hands, and kissing and smiling so much till your cheeks hurt, and then the next day you're just not in love anymore. I can't understand how some people can just turn their feelings off like that. I could never do that. I'm either in love, or not. I mean, I've loved ex boyfriends before, and then it's taken time to get used to not being with them anymore. But I still love them all as people. Just not romantically anymore. I don't think guys know how to do that. Meh, a few thoughts.